Just close my eyes. Take me away.
Today is particularly frustrating. I feel as if I am at wits end, and that there may not be light at the end of the tunnel just yet. I think I have too much stress to deal with at this point in my life. There should be an age restriction on stress. Like you cant have a certain amount of stress until 30... it stunts your growth.
Im only 24 and I feel as if I am facing this world all by myself. I walk around today, with a lump in the back of my throat, just supressing the mass amount of sobbing that just wants to push thru. The other morning, I couldn't help myself but start crying... in the shower... And what is weird about crying in the shower is that your dont really feel like your crying, so I just allowed it. I sat down, let the water hit my face and just sobbed. Like a ninny.
Im at the point of not knowing what to do. Im just really sad inside. I feel like I have lost everything all at once, and now im just wandering, trying to find something to grasp on to.
What irritates me, is that with the way things are right now... All these people that got into these crazy ass ARM loans and now are scrambling for help not to loose their house are getting help. What about the renter?? Im about to loose my apartment. Comeon now. Where is my relief?? Im not asking for money, but maybe just let me out of my lease without penalties. Thats not too much to ask for. I need to write my congressman. You should too :)
And have you heard of the "tent cities"? If you haven't, look them up. That is what keeps me humble.
I know I know. Poooooooor me. That's not at all what I am getting at. I just needed to vent. This is a great avenue to do it.
Im still here. Please... Take me away!
(Thank you Samantha. For being there for me every night, so I dont feel like all hope is gone)